I have to be honest and say that I’ve not been so honest with you all. I’ve been keeping a secret, a sort of big one. It’s going to stay that way (at least for now, sorry loves), but hindsight being the bitch that she is? I am amazed at the absolute, what’s the word here … crap, no … craziness, no … foolishness, yes, but I need a better word … ah!
BULLSHIT
I am simply amazed at the utter BULLSHIT I can talk myself into believing. And when hindsight rears her ugly head and gives me the good solid swift kick in the ass I need? I sit back and wonder, WTF QT. Pull your head out of your rectum. You deserve so much more than this, and having to ask for it from him, time and again? Is more like pressing the “PUSH HERE TO MAKE ME MORE STUBBORN” button he’s got connected to his forehead.
I needed a clue, I needed a reminder, I think. I needed a reminder that I am worth so much more than what I was getting. I needed a reminder that I am no ones second choice. I needed a reminder that a phone call every now and again is a part of it – a part of building something together. I needed a reminder that better than nothing is not good enough for me. And most importantly? I needed a reminder that I will no longer spend my time on or give my heart to a guy that makes me wonder about his feelings for me.
And then …
I got that reminder in the form of Make Out Guy.
Because now? Now I’m reminded that I am worth something. I am reminded that I am not his second choice. I am reminded how good it feels when he calls simply to ask “How was your day?” And I’m reminded that I don’t question his feelings for me.
I leave you with this, a note from Make Out Guy … because it made me smile and because it’s a perfect ending to this blog entry:
While I don’t know where this is headed, I’m excited to find out.
“And when hindsight rears her ugly head and gives me the good solid swift kick in the ass I need?
I just want it known that I gave that kick in the ass a few times and it didn’t take.
Glad that someone made it work.
love,
-R.
That you did Cookie, and I do love you lots for it.
All I have to say is that is something said about timing.
The only person who can change your mind is YOU!!!
Somewhere in there, you did and then you were presented with someone that you would finally recognize… in many different ways!
Believe me girl, I did the same thing. The exact same thing! And isn’t it nice to finally know and have proof that you’re worth so much more?
Ah yes! This is BEAUTIFUL!
Oh and P.S. Rascal said those exact same words to me on our first phone call. Hee hee!
I see both Rascal and Make Out Guy both subscribe to my newsletter.
both both both redundant both both.
So QT….how was your day?
You TOTALLY deserve to be treated the way you want to be treated. My fingers are crossed that you find what you’re looking for.
I love secrets and I like your blog, go girl lol…
So who’s swift kick was it? Mine or RE’s? lol
I’m glad you found what you want from a man! That’s great. I know women love those phone calls and little reminders.
I can absolutely relate to that feeling of not knowing where something is headed, but being excited to find out. Here’s hoping that you find what’s best for you.
I totally get you. I get in those funks too and it sucks…hurts and is absolute mental anguish. BUT…as you’ll see in my post today…I’ve got the winner this time!
stay strong…make him let you know how he feels!
And the plot thickens!
So happy for you and MakeOut Man. How’s the making out going these days????
Alicia,
First, did you see he loves bacon? *Laugh*
And to answer your question, it’s just like it use to be. Damn good.
Oh angel…..OF COURSE you deserve soooooooooooooo much more and of COURSE you are soooooooooooooooooo worth it! NEVER forget that or I’ll have up make sure my passport is updated just so I can track you down and kick your butt myself! LOL…..I think I’m likin’ ‘Makeout Man’…especially if he’s making you *see* things more clearly.
Is it just me? Or is there something infectious going on in the blogosphere of late?
QT
Tonya
CBG & Momma Sunshine
Alicia
(I could go on but all these people commented here)
Is that the secret? Leave a comment and have someone wonderful fall for you?
I want a piece of that action!!
I’ll be back to comment tomorrow…
Oh, and good for you QT!
We all know you deserve it.
Mindy, you know, you can add a few to that list.
LittleMansMom – Engaged
Ms. Single Mama – Boyfriend
Rachel (Single Mom Seeking) – Boyfriend
T, of course does have Rascal
Alicia is getting some
CBG & Sunshine – Uh, LOVE LOVE LOVE in the air!
Jane Wonder – Boyfriend
Random Esquire has Besos
And now, it’s your turn methinks.
And thank you, while I’m not using the word boyfriend yet, I am using the words “A SHITLOAD FULL OF POTENTIAL”!
I love how I’m included in the (formerly) single mom’s list. heh.
-R.
Cookie! I’m laughing so hard right now, cuz you know you’re so right it just never OCCURRED to me to not include you!
hahaha and funny that i read most of the single mom blogs u named because, well, I’m a single mom and Randoms.