The Holiday Season and My New Holiday Header

I must throw a big shout out to Miss Cindy Boogs for making me a holiday header!  The best part is?  I didn’t even ask, she just sent it my way!  It’s like an early Christmas gift!  Thank you Boogs, you’re the bestest graphics chick EVER! 

I must admit, I was dreading the upcoming holiday season.  I was dreading it for a few reasons, but mainly, at some point, it dawned on me that I’d be spending my holiday season alone.  Well, not alone-alone, because my sweet girl is always with me, but alone – in the adult way.  Meaning – no special man to share it with.  That in turn, makes me think of my last Thanksgiving and Christmas, which was spent with Dick.  That was spent … happily with Dick.  Thanksgiving at his house, him cooking Thanksgiving dinner for his family.  How we giggled and got out of bed at 1am on Christmas Eve to open our presents to each other.  New Years Eve together, having drinks and being silly with kisses at midnight.  I suppose the prospect of not having anyone in my life to share those things was depressing to me.  It still sort of is, in a way.  Now please, don’t take this to mean I regret that break up he did, because I don’t.  It’s just, I guess, spending the holidays alone.

I have my family, of course.  But, it’s not the same.  I have my daughter as well.  But, it’s not the same.

Hmmm …

Maybe I’ll ask Santa for a boyfriend this year.  One that isn’t a Narcissist!  Now that, yes, that would be nice.